Time, please stop.

最温暖的天空

却换了季节

在绝望的面前

洒落一地心碎

My heart was tied up so tightly that breathing seems involuntary. Time, I guess that's what I really need after all. But on second thought, maybe I would want it to stop so that I couldn't felt anything, could actually forget everything including you.

Last night while I was about to sleep, I lifted up my hand up and guess what I saw? Blood. They are kinda dried up though. Oh my gawd, shocked enough I check everywhere if I was hurt and no sign of injuries. It was about a few minutes later that I found out I actually coughed blood o_o freak out. No heaty food and lots of water from now on.

I hope I could concentrate on my studies ONLY for these days, to get over with anything related to other than studies. But I realize I couldn't, it's tougher than I'd imagine. I'm worried about my studies but worrying wouldn't do anything better. I knew this, I knew it so clearly that it's adding up to my stressness too. Leave me alone, stress and unbearable pain.

I wonder if I could really accept loving someone again, they say it's a greater way to forget someone by accepting another. I doubt it.