It'll All Be A Dream

请别说你爱我，你想我，如果你的心里没有这么做，只是勉强的敷衍我，我知道了会很难过。

Art assignment is due next week, and although it seems like i have quite a start but actually i don't. I have tons of things to do still but that laziness, I just can't get over with it hmm.

Been having headache today, even the simplest favor my friend ask for, i have rejected it, not purposely wanted to make her down or what, my head just go blank all the time and hurt so much. Argh.

What a bad way to start a new school life, not concentrating in class (maybe just half concentrating =X), piling up my tuition homeworks, talking with friends (gossiping?) and that hateful headache just added up how ruined my hardworking, fully-concentrate school days went by. It just went down the hills, rolling and stumbling.

You know the times when you're expecting someone's text but it came out to be a Digi update messages? Well, I'll tell you, it sucks. I can feel that disappointment really make the worst out of me, my eyes were watery by then, but what can I hope for? All I can do is just wait and wait. Just realize how stupid one can be, and I found out I'm one of that stupid one too.

They say music express your feelings, I totally agree, no objection. But recently it's gotten into me, I started to feel inside particular songs, how the song goes that's how my heart and feelings went. Thanks to them for accompanying me through times, when I needed no one but a slight bit of comfort. Even now, too.

一句话，一件事，真的能让你转身就离开吗？迷惑，到底应该挽留还是放手

究竟是什么？

究竟是为什么呢？ 让我犹豫那么久？原因，还在寻找着。

Next week's PTS day. Argh. I'm definitely dying x.x hope my mommy would think positively for just this once. For once, please. Not forgetting we got into the class choir singing competition finals, happy yet nervous. At first we thought of doing our best only and not aiming for the first place, but my ex-form teacher suddenly pop out and help our class get through this. A great help indeed, better than that useless only-know-how-to-talk-and-never-care-about-us teacher who think herself was so "good". All of us was stunned, but she had successfully made me wanna win this competition so badly, so much for following her for the last 3 years. Well, want to and going to aren't quite the same, so let's just hope there's a small piece of miracle there! 'Cause S3 are much more pro than we thought =X

Leave beside my homeworks there's still that art assignment which make me get my nerves on :C so many to do and i'm not halfway to completing it, trying to get some help but there's none hmm..

This term's xxxball competition starts last week. It's basketball, my favourite! I managed to stay back to watch them play, nice but depends which team play, i mean class haha :)

I have too much to worry, please don't frustrate me.

It has to be you :)

Been busy with studies and tuitions, just wanna get some rest! Everyone's like getting the law study, test and even the driving license, jealousy crept in :{

Trying to concentrate in every period during study time, and conclusion is : keep my eyes wide open and ignore any incoming disturbance? I'll definitely choose the "try harder" option haha

I'm sick of you always play around with your emotion without me knowing what really happened, always go off that suddenly, always change your tone that quickly, I just really can't get what you're thinking. Seriously.

Only in-searching someone who cares me more than others do, who loves me more than i love him.

And, you're probably not that "him".